Mom, There are so many things that could be said, and yet adequate words are elusive. But I'll try anyway. I guess it always comes down to the valiant attempt, doesn't it? There are so many days, and moments within those days that I feel at a loss. Because life holds challenges, and surprises, and God rarely takes to the task of fitting us for His Glory in a way that we anticipate, and feel prepared to handle. So much of His plan feels beyond our control, and we are left with our worrisome inclinations. We have not much to lean on, as the bits of self are stripped steadily away, and we look in the mirror at all that remains, and what started out as "not much" has whittled itself down to a pathetic "even less". And we feel that loss. What do we even have to offer? But then, there is Wisdom. It doesn't always look like you want it to, and seems to always require more than one is readily prepared to give, because aren't we always more inclined to take the widest road with the clearest skies? Wisdom doesn't come in neatly wrapped packaging, tidy lists, or structured how-to's. It has to be searched. It has to be obtained. And it costs. On the road less traveled, it can cost a great deal by way of comfort and self-interest. I am forever grateful to have seen Truth sought after, and held close. I am so glad I've benefitted from your exchange-of-payment. You were willing to do what the Lord required of you. It's an example I turn to often, and it gives hope for the journey. I have seen a life with "even less" be blessed with abundance, when circumstances of difficulty, tragedy, pain, and sadness have threatened to unglue. But then, God. It's been a flawed journey, as they all are, but, at the end of the day, I know that lessons will be learned, applied, taught and lived, because that's kind of a mom thing isn't it? So thank you Mom - Because I was Mothered well. And your example lives on, as we raise the next generation to love the Lord, search out Truth, and pray, daily, for Wisdom. We learned well from you. Thank you for living life openly for us to see first hand that nothing is above God's sight or care.
"This world is not as it should be,
But the Saviour opens eyes to see
All that's beautiful and true."